an apology
I tend to be headstrong about things. When I form an opinion that I really believe in, I commit myself fully to it. Most of you know this -- there was a fiasco some months back that was largely caused by a particularly contentious opinion of mine.
I apologise for this tendency that I have, because I know it can cause tensions and conflict. I don't think I can help feeling strongly about things (I'm not sure that I should), but I do think I should be doing a better job of filtering those convictions or emotions out of the way I behave. I guess there's a balance that needs to be maintained between indulging my own convictions or emotions and hurting or conflicting with others, even when that balance compromises some truth that I hold to. I'll admit that I don't have an easy time saying this, because Unadulterated Truth is an ideal that I base my understanding of the world on, but I'm starting to think that there are times when even the truth isn't worth it. I think Confucius had something to say about this once.
At any rate, I'm sorry for the hurt I've caused by being so overbearingly assertive. It's something I'm trying to work on.
I apologise for this tendency that I have, because I know it can cause tensions and conflict. I don't think I can help feeling strongly about things (I'm not sure that I should), but I do think I should be doing a better job of filtering those convictions or emotions out of the way I behave. I guess there's a balance that needs to be maintained between indulging my own convictions or emotions and hurting or conflicting with others, even when that balance compromises some truth that I hold to. I'll admit that I don't have an easy time saying this, because Unadulterated Truth is an ideal that I base my understanding of the world on, but I'm starting to think that there are times when even the truth isn't worth it. I think Confucius had something to say about this once.
At any rate, I'm sorry for the hurt I've caused by being so overbearingly assertive. It's something I'm trying to work on.
This entry was posted by Ren, on
Monday, July 07, 2008.
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This is something I've been working through the past couple months too. I'm thankful to have a partner like you.
In your passionate search for the Unadulterated Truth, it seems that truth has somehow eluded you. It does appear that instead, you have instead found wisdom.
The truth is always worth it, especially if it's like you say - unadulterated.
Just need to find an effective way to communicate it. Keep going strong though, but it's refreshing to read this. Definitely feeling similar things.
I think we exercise true humility when we acknowledge (and not justify) our faults and failings. Here's to dispersing pride--you're doing great!
-Trace
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