problems

I know they seem like opposites, but could insecurity and pride be two faces of the same problem? To be more specific: can insecurity emerge out of pride? or can pride emerge out of insecurity? Alternatively, could both emerge out of some deeper issue?

It's strange, really -- I know I can be quite insecure, and at the same time I know I can be quite proud, and I know there are often situations when I'm being both. It's almost like a simultaneous lack and excess of love for myself. How does that work?

Circumstances unfolded today in a way that made most people less happy, but I was secretly glad. I guess that's not something to be proud of -- but I don't feel sorry for feeling that way at all. I know the situation wasn't ideal, even after it'd developed the way it did, but anything is better than nothing, and right now I feel like I need everything I can get.

Is that wrong?

This entry was posted by Ren, on Tuesday, July 01, 2008. You can leave your response.